steamroller personality

I know that when I'm stoned, I'm often in a good position to do this anyway, since my normal thought patterns are somewhat disrupted and accentuated. I like putting on a chill song, closing my eyes, and simply noticing what thoughts pop into my head. I pull myself back to my breath when I start to wander off with them. I sometimes also light a candle and simply place my attention on the flame, for extra groovy points. And like a lot of women, I have a lot of baggage around said munchies.

But for me, being high has actually been a great time to reprogram some of my associations with food. If I feel snacky, sometimes I try asking myself: What am I actually craving right now? Then, I try something truly radical: allow myself to go and eat it, without judgement. As I eat, I try to slow down and focus on the taste, the sensations, and the pleasure of the food. I try to promise myself that I will listen to my body and let it decide when I'm full, rather than deciding how much to eat based on the amount I think I "should" consume. Though you may imagine this ending with me eating until I'm sick, that actually isn't what happens for me — in fact, often, by honoring how much food I want and my desires, I'm more likely to end up eating the amount that's right for me and my body. When you're stoned, you usually have some interesting outside perspective on yourself — so when I want to see something truly mind-blowing, I take a hand mirror and check out my vag. I might also try one of my favorite body image exercises, which is to confront my full body in the mirror while standing up (this is great sober as well, which goes for all of these, obviously). I look at myself in the mirror, and then turn the inward narrative out. By forcing yourself to say your feelings about your body to your own face, you have the potential to make friends with it and reprogram your inner critic.

For extra fun-and-trippy points, I might also do this by recording myself on Photobooth, looking at myself as I speak my inner narrative about what I see, and then play it back to myself afterwards. I'm a big proponent of women doing more stuff out alone. One of my favorite activities to do alone, stoned or otherwise, is to go see live jazz. I'm lucky that I live in New York, where there's plenty of jazz, but even if you live somewhere else, see if you can find some live music. I like to let my mind wander as I watch, and I know that I feel less self-conscious sitting alone when I have someone besides the bartender to place my attention on. I might also bring a journal to write down thoughts and sketches as I listen. Of course, it's different in every city and bar, but I find that going out alone is nothing to be afraid of. People won't tend to bother me if I look busy scribbling, and if I want to meet new people, my emboldened state helps me make some eye contact. This might sound like a silly thing to do — and it is. But it's also really fun, and in my experience, it has helped me cultivate lots of body positivity. When I put on the tunes I loved to dance to as a teen (Beyonce, Shakira, and the Save The Last Dance soundtrack — all the way) I find myself uninhibited in a way I just can't access when I'm in public. Sometimes, it's important to dance knowing no one's watching. While I also love to do this for exercise and a dose of self-love while sober, I've found that dancing alone high makes things next-level fun. I'm already open and less likely to judge my own moves — and it feels great to be hyperaware of how good it feels just to move my body, and how sexy I really am. This post was originally published on December 8, 2015. The 6 Most Satisfying Subreddits to Read When You're High. Your roommate is on a Tinder date, and you already saw your sorta-kinda-we’re-just-having-fun paramour once this week and don’t want to seem needy. A trip to the movies is expensive, and so is going out to eat alone. Same thing we do every night, Pinky — smoke weed and go online! The internet is a vast and terrible expanse, and it’s easy to get overwhelmed and fall back into something that feels familiar as a reflex. Before you rewatch Inglorious Basterds again or spend two hours looking at starter pack memes, take a gander at these subreddits instead. They’re all moderately active and actively weird — perfect fodder for a hazy evening spent next to an open box of Cheez-its and the nagging sensation that you’re forgetting something. It’s a little cliché, but the fact remains that hunger and marijuana are wonderful bedfellows. r/FoodPorn is at once maddening and inspiring, a subreddit dedicated entirely to beautiful pictures of food. Burgers, pizza, fries, and ice cream are all lovingly documented, as well as homemade breakfast platters and loaves of bread.

The delicacies on display should be enough motivation to tinker around in your own kitchen- or to get up off your ass and order takeout. One of the best parts about being high is that things that are only kind of interesting become super interesting, like the history of World War I or some of my ex-boyfriends. r/mildlyinteresting, with tagline “Unleash your mild side,” is a perfect example of marijuana’s fascination-enhancing effects. This subreddit is full of pictures of things that will make you say, “Oh, huh.” Unusual animals, accidental optical illusions, and noteworthy packaging errors are all recurring motifs. A note of caution: if you see something on this subreddit that compels you to text a friend or relative, open it in a separate tab and wait twenty minutes and then look at it again. If you remember why you thought it was cool enough to send to someone else at second glance, then go for it.

This subreddit is populated by tales of scary encounters with strangers or stalkers, and if you’re a spooky bitch you will absolutely eat this up.


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